What is L.O.V.E?

I’ve recently freed myself from a relationship that I knew I was settling for. He was a nice person, and he was close to what I wanted … but he wasn’t “the one”. Honestly, the major problem in our relationship was that I don’t believe I loved him. I think when the going gets tough in relationships it still works out because you love that person. I think that it why the going was so tough for us. 

I also have been fighting off feelings for the last year that I hold for someone else. And boy he is he wonderful. You might even say I L.O.V.E him. 

Whatever that is. 

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So this situation that I’ve stumbled upon has got me to think… what actually is love? The first thing that came to mind is the movie Sleepless in Seattle, when Sam is talking to the doctor on the phone and says: 

"I knew it the very first time I touched her. It was like coming home, only to no home I’d ever known. I was just taking her hand to help her out of a car. I know, and it was like … magic". 

Next that brings me to the movie You’ve Got Mail: 

"You know, sometimes I wonder…" 

"What"

"Well if I hadn’t been Fox Books and you hadn’t been The Shop Around the Corner, and you and I had just, well, met…"

"I know".

"Yeah. I would have asked for your number, and I wouldn’t have been able to wait twenty-four hours before calling you and said ‘Hey, how about … oh, how about some coffee or, you know, drinks or dinner or a movie … for as long as we both shall live?"

"I was hoping it was you"

And this is from my life:

"The best feeling in the world is when you look at him … and he is already staring". 

Currents About to Change…

I’ve been going down
Down into the river baby
Listen to the sound
It’s something only god knows
You figure it out, I can’t stay
Water’s in the clouds
Is my life about to change?
Who knows, who cares

So we took a van down to colorado
Where we ran into the dead
I took you by the hand
Know that even with your doubts, it’s ok
Take into account that it’s not about to change
Who knows, who cares

You could let it down
Jump into the river baby
Easy as it sounds
It’s never quite as easily done
The current has us now, it’s ok
Take into account that it’s all about to change
Who knows, who cares

No one’s been there
But I don’t care
I know all have been there
I don’t care
I know

xo

E

Whatever this is…

I’m ready to embrace this, I’m ready for repair
I’ve got so many layers left by amateur painters who covered
over what was there
I stuffed myself sick on your memory and the beautiful mess
we’d made
But I’m so tired of being inspired only when things slip away
They told me time would strip it all free and leave me bone
dry
They told me time would strip it all free but I’m no better than
when I left here the first time
I’m ready to erase this, I’m ready to begin
Spent myself trying to change all the beauty we d made just
to want it all back again
And with the clouds moving in, this hardly looks like the same
moon
And with the leaves all gone the trees that once stood strong
now look pinched and cruel

"Start writing, no matter what. The water does not flow until the faucet is turned on."

— Louis L’Amour 

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Self Actualization

I know it sounds cliche … but I spent most of my day watching Oprah. For a large portion of my life I’ve kind of laughed at her and have potentially taken all her hard work for granted. I find this kind of surprising because she is everything I stand for and encompass. She is a woman changing lives, giving people dreams and supporting those that are hurt. She is empowering woman and I think she is the cat’s pajama’s. Where have I been all this time? 

My favourite Oprah cliche is her yelling in a deep voice “you get a new car, and you get a new car, and you get a new car”. It’s absolutely ridiculous. But I watched an episode of “Where are they now” and there was a story of a woman who sold the new car and started a make up business that had blossomed into a franchise that she sold to Macy’s. Talk about ripple effect. 

I also stumbled across this wonderful blog, that is a more straight forward version of what my blog started off being. The young woman writing the blog writes about one thing a day that she is thankful or blessed to have in her life. It’s absolutely wonderful and I would encourage you all to read it. Here is the link: http://todaywasmeaningful.wordpress.com/page/4/

My hats off to you ladies, you are smart and kind and because of those two traits - that makes you beautiful. 

I am on a journey to becoming re - self actualized. My Lord knows I need it and the the Lord knows I need him near. I am blessed today to be given this opportunity, this time, to find serenity and peace. 

The knowledge of this, gives me tingles.

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Humble.

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I want to be a more soulful Woman

I want to be a more soulful Woman. I haven’t written on here in ages… but I think it is time that I started again. 

For the last hour I have sat here listening to a woman whom is so strong. But she was strong within her weakness. She was beautiful. She was her own woman.

Recently I’ve tried to bring myself back to the basics. I devote every morning as soon as I wake up and every evening before I go to bed to my God. Even now, I know it is not enough but I will continue to try and be better. I read my devotional and I try to reflect, I try to absorb and I try to bring all the memories of love back into my heart. I try to bring Jesus, in His truest form, back into my heart. Writing the word ‘back’ in the last sentence really hurt … but if I am being truthful with myself, then that word should be there. There is a big difference between ‘going through the motions’ and actually ‘feeling’ something. Jesus’ love is something you should ‘feel’. 

I just want to be more WOMAN. I’m in tears, but what else new. My heart aches right now. It probably shouldn’t, but it does. I live in fear, but I’m not sure if it is of God. 

In life, you will do things much greater than you ever imagined. I can promise you that.